tl;dr: A mathematician expresses a profound spiritual crisis over recent LLMs producing counterexamples to long-standing conjectures, arguing that the community's coping responses (e.g., the Leiden Declaration) sidestep the real loss: mathematical discovery as a sacred, human experience of accessing the ineffable. The author contends that even if humans can still "do math" as spectators or curators, the creative act itself—historically a mystical tradition from Ramanujan to Grothendieck—is being permanently foreclosed. The piece offers no policy prescriptions, only a raw emotional plea for acknowledgment before the "coup de grâce."